Oophorectomy

So tomorrow is my big surgery...Oophorectomy.  With every passing second I become more of a train wreck in anticipation of this.  I made my decision to have my ovaries out years ago.  Having the gene and my aunt already having ovarian cancer I just don't want to take a chance.  But I am beyond sad!  While we have 4 kids and I don't plan on having anymore having that option not there is heart wrenching!  I'm completely devastated! 

I have already had my breast removed and now my ovaries... in a sense doesn't that take away all my womanhood? I'm only 30 years old, am I ready for menopause, hot flashes, and all that comes along with this?  When I made this choice I thought chemo had driven me to menopause and I was great with it but as the years have gone by I feel crushed about what is in store for tomorrow!